(June 8, 2020) My Unexpected Journey
Updated: Jun 17
One of the things I am quickly learning is how much most everyone facing cancer is in the dark about treatments, diet, the type of cancer they have, and the list goes on. It’s like someone running up behind you and knocking you to the ground, and when you get up they are gone and you have no idea what just happened.
YOU HAVE CANCER! It just comes out of nowhere. For most of us it is something we never thought we would hear. Most people think, ‘oh that won’t happen to me. I’m healthy and take good care of myself.’ But the truth is it can happen to anyone of us. I was one of those people that never thought it would happen to me but it did. My point here is we are completely unprepared for what just happened to us. Questions start filling your mind like water in a sinking boat. Fear, confusion, anger, and depression begin to set in really fast, and if you don’t get a grip on it, it will crush you like a bug under foot.
If there is anything I know, it is knowledge is power. Most people who get cancer know nothing about it unless they dealt with a family member or close friend who has or had cancer. A lot of fear in people’s lives come from the unknown. If you knew exactly what is in that dark room, you wouldn’t be afraid to walk in it. Knowledge removes the fear. Knowing exactly what you are facing gives you control over your circumstances so you can make educated decisions rather than guessing at what to do or even worse just doing whatever people tell you to do. Not a good Idea. It is your life and you need to be the one that decides what to do about your cancer or whatever storm you might be facing.
Lucky for me I learned this early in life, so when I am faced with something I don’t understand I dig deep and quickly gain the knowledge I need to face the storm with confidence. One of the very frustrating things I have run into is how little information you get from the very people who are trying to treat you. The medical system is such that the doctors are running people through the system like cows through a shoot. Trying to reach them with a question involves navigating through a massive phone system, that I am convinced was designed to make you give up and just hang up. The faster you get answers the faster you get control of your situation and that’s a fact. So, I have been digging deep and digging hard. Do I still have fear, YES! But I am in control.
Most of my fear comes from the reality of what I am facing. Stage 4 cancer is not good no matter how you look at it. But I have also learned that there are loads of people who have beat Stage 4, and that is what I intend to do.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. The more knowledge I get, the more control I feel in making decisions about what path to move forward with. Creating my strategy, building my plan, and taking care of eliminating things in my life I don’t need, so I can fight the battle before me. I highly suggest you do the same. Don’t let fear freeze you in place. Dig in and dig deep and get the answers you need to gain total control. Learn everything about your enemy so you can defeat him on the battlefield. That is how wars are won. Make your doctors take the time to answer your questions. Meditate on the promises of God. Don’t jump into treatments until you feel confident that it is the best path forward. Remember it is your life and you have the right to choose how you live it. That being said, considering God and your loved ones play a huge role in those decisions. Their opinion matters as well.
I love all of you and so does God, Billy