June 26, 2020 - My Unexpected Journey
Each time I sit down to write one of these blog posts,
I try to stop and think about what I am feeling at the time. When you are facing a battle like cancer, each day holds new challenges and new decisions that need to be made. To complicate things, there is a tug of war going on between planning for success and planning for failure. Your heart says I’m going to beat this thing, but logic says you must make sure your house is in order in case you don’t.
Planning for the worst makes me feel like I am doubting God to heal me, but His word tells me that my number one job as a husband, father, and grandfather is to take care of my family. God’s word always gives you clarity. It blows my mind to think about someone facing this without God in their life. I would be a basket case, but instead I am at peace.
Now the craziest thing I am experiencing in all of this is how busy facing cancer can make you! So much for stopping to smell the roses! Between doctor visits, diet changes and meal prep like you wouldn’t believe, a new exercise routine, time to educate myself, and planning for the future, I’m working harder now than I was when I was working a job. The good news is a lot of these things are a one time deal, so things will calm down in the near future.
I can tell you this, no matter how prepared you think you are to deal with something like this, you’re not. It will make you think of things you never thought about before. One of the biggest things for me is preparing my wife. In every marriage each person has their roles they play. She does tasks I never do, and the same goes for me. One of the blessings in my marriage is Sharon and I share the load, and there is no power struggle between us. We learned early on what each one of us excelled at and took on those roles, which has made our marriage work very well.
But now not a day goes by that I don’t think about something that I need to show her or explain to her so she will be able to handle it if I’m not there. It’s funny some of the little stuff becomes a big deal, and some of the big stuff becomes unimportant. Facing cancer is a game changer for sure.
I guess if there is a lesson to be learned in all this rambling I’m doing, it’s to get your house in order as best as you can and the rest of the stuff put it in Gods hands. No matter what you’re facing, the answer to the problem lies between the front and back cover of that amazing book we call the Bible. It is your manual for living this life and your hotline to the throne of God. I only wish I would have read it along time ago. It would have saved me a lot of headaches and heartaches.
I love all of you and so does God,